distant look in those eyes

I remember the night

when we were held in each other’s arms

on your bed

and after a moment of silence

with the warmth of your breath

gliding on my skin,

you uttered the words,

“I love you.”

For some reason, I thought I was

dreaming,

but you were right next to me, smiling,

and I cried -

tears of joy.

I was so happy and surprised

that you fell in love with me so quickly,

that I could not say those three words

to you

and mean it - for the longest time.

Who knew that love would mean the world to me.

It was a new feeling

that I cherished and sometimes took for granted

because as I am sitting here,

I wish that I could have loved you

more than you ever loved me

so that we could save ourselves.

Save our relationship.

Save our happiness.

Save what we made from the time we laughed about arcade games

to the times we laughed about family and friends.

If I began to love you when you already loved me,

what makes you think that i still don’t?

I love you, Julian, through all the heartache and pain.

The misery and sorrow.

The happiness and tearful joys.

You made my world go round

and you also made me into the person I am today.

I wouldn’t have done this without you.

I love you, Julian, and I hope you still love me too.

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So I’m officially 20 years old now. Awesome. I just feel busier and I mature each day. I can’t say that I’m happy being 20 now, but the good thing is that I still look young. I can see a trend for every time I turn a year older, I look four years younger. I have no idea why, but I think this will be advantageous for me in the future.

As a present from my boyfriend, he bought me tickets to the midnight premiere of The Avengers and we watched it with his housemates/friends. It was an awesome night. I loved the Hulk especially in one scene when he kept throwing Loki on the ground after Loki told him that they needed to kneel before him. HAHA. It was so funny!

Everyone should totally watch it.

& I would just like to thank those that wished me a happy birthday. :)